Veteran Chat Project
Veteran Chat Project
Exploring the Challenges and Rewards of Intentional Living
"To quit, or not to quit?" - that's the question. As someone who is currently grappling with the question around marijuana usage, I share my personal struggle and the intricate balancing act between wanting to quit and the need for acceptance. We also touch on other addictive habits like cigarettes and alcohol, and even take a stroll down the contentious political avenue of addiction. It's a candid conversation about the role of addiction in detracting from intentional living.
In the pursuit of intentional living, setting clear goals and prioritizing tasks is paramount. We hand over practical tips on crafting achievable goals, breaking them down into manageable steps, and staying motivated. We challenge the rigid view of goals and highlight the importance of adaptability. We also delve into the realm of relationships and the search for people who can both support and challenge us. Brace yourself for a heavy note as we delve into the reality of death, the difficulty in accepting it, and the pain of loss. It's a raw, challenging, and enlightening exploration of what it truly means to live intentionally.
So here's our invitation to you: join us as we peel back the layers, challenge our own perceptions, and make a conscious choice to live intentionally. It's not always an easy journey, but we believe it's worth it. Because at the end of the day, only we have the power to reshape our lives in line with our deepest values and aspirations. Let's step into that power together.
We live, motherfucker. Burn up the boy yo. Hey everybody, what's up? Kyle and KZ.
Speaker 2:Yeah, more people get their voice out there than I think they'll realize. We're all the same really.
Speaker 1:KZ decided to f*** and took the bait. I didn't tell him to chat project. I'm a bastard, yo. We're encouraged to not be okay all the time, and tonight's one of those nights. Folks, we are not okay. We're not okay about it.
Speaker 2:And that's okay. Yeah, it is okay.
Speaker 1:What a hell of a night dude. It's a hell of a life, you know what, and we all kind of go through it. And right now, as much as we like to sit on here and act like we got it all together, we sat here for like the last 30 minutes just talking about how we don't. So we decided just to f*** and run it and decide to make it better for ourselves and work through it Right here, in front of y'all. Here we are and we appreciate y'all, as we always do. We cannot express our gratitude for y'all listening and everything.
Speaker 1:It's just something that's really been bothering us lately, and maybe not us as more as just like. It just seems like the I don't know like the world. The world is a shitty place lately and it's like we have a really good show and we have a really good idea behind it and what we're doing is real and there's just not a lot of that left in the world anymore. It seems like if you're not f***ing like Robert Downey Jr or Joe Rogan or f***, you know, like you just If I make a quote and if I put my words in it, but if I were to type it on Facebook and then put like underscore, like you know, some Just to say oh, ryan Reynolds said that.
Speaker 1:People would be like oh my God, ryan Reynolds, he's so smart, he's just such the greatest man ever. And then I'd be like actually, I wrote that Like you're a f***ing lion, sack of s***. You know what I mean, and it's like. So why, though, why do you, why is it so hard to believe that just two dudes really, really f***ing, care to help you? I'm telling you right now that those influencers that are clickbait m*** f***ers, all that s***, like they're just trying to get out of the way of the world. They're not f***ers, all that s***. Like. They're just trying to get you to look at their name, to look at their s***, to be duped. You know what I mean. Like we're just not that, and that's what I wanted to start it off with and I think, to go into it, we're going to talk a little bit about living intentionally and what that means.
Speaker 2:What does that mean to you? Oh f***, oh s***.
Speaker 1:I know what it means to me because I've been. I've actually been thinking about it a lot. Yeah, the living intentionally part, not necessarily anything else except for that, those words, when I heard it. I'll let you tell yours first.
Speaker 2:Okay.
Speaker 1:You're like, dammit, I'm getting away with it.
Speaker 2:I was legit like let's sink in, let's go Living intentionally to me on spot. What does that mean to me? I don't want to say. I feel like that's a half-ass answer, doing what I'm Doing, what I'm Doing, what I say I'm going to do. Does that make sense?
Speaker 1:Pretty much, yeah, for sure.
Speaker 2:That's the first thing I think of Putting it to be put in the hot seat, because I have never thought about that Until you brought it up literally what? Five minutes before we hit. Live, that, yeah, I like. But there's a reason why I like that, because it's something that needs to be talked about. Yeah, living intentionally to me means, yeah, doing exactly what. I'm Putting one foot in front of the other to get to whatever my target point is. Well, and it's not even that I mean.
Speaker 1:For me, that too. Well, let's just say. Let's just say living intentionally in a relationship right, so you want to Do things that you know your wife like. Right, so you do things just based off I'm intentionally doing this because I know that this makes her happy and nothing else but that. Right, so you live intentionally with that, with the intent to Make your wife happy. Right, so that's your intention of the day. You, that's your daily core value, your daily mission or whatever it is you know. So it's just yeah, you live Like you're doing it on purpose.
Speaker 1:Nothing's an accident, because you planned every step. And not even I know it's conflicting, because a while back I got off this tangent about not having a plan of every step, but it's kind of like a happy medium, I guess you could say, because you want to have a plan of rough outline but at the same time you also need to be able to adjust fire. Right, but yeah, but when you live intentionally, I mean you're living out your core values. It's the one thing you can actually do to live out your core values, I mean. So living intentionally means making conscious and purposeful choices in how you lead your life. It involves being proactive rather than reactive, and aligning your actions and decisions with your core values, goals and aspirations. Living intentionally is taking ownership of your life and creating a sense of direction and meaning in everything you do. Taking ownership know what? Yeah.
Speaker 2:Everything you do?
Speaker 1:I don't have time for this? Well, it's because you didn't make time for it. That's nobody else's fault. You're not too busy to care for people. You're not too busy to call people. You're not too busy to answer a text message? And you might be, but at that moment there's almost a second you can if someone I just don't get it.
Speaker 1:I reach out to people sometimes and you'll see it, red and just left, and you're just like bro, like I mean, like I get it, but like and I'm not talking about like you know, like you're typical, like oh, when I'm dating this girl and she left me on red, like no, I'm talking about like real life shit, you know, like trying to get people on this show, like, instead of fucking this, leaving a hanging, like well, fucking, say like you don't want to, or tell me you want to be on it, but then when we send you the invite, you don't want to be on it, because we've had that happen quite a bit. And then another time we got people that fucking we've sent the invite to three multiple times and we don't want to comment on shit until it's talking about some. Where's my episode? Oh, oh, episode doesn't fucking exist. Jod's fire dude, sick of that shit. Dude, I've asked you three fucking times to be on this show.
Speaker 1:So anyways, moving forward, we live intentionally on this motherfucker by actually making plans, goals and living by them. When I tell somebody I'll be there at 8 30, guess where the fuck I'm at at 8 15. Right there, ready and waiting, I'm not going to go. Oh shit, I completely forgot that. I made this appointment twice and forgot the date twice.
Speaker 1:You know that's not living intentionally or it could be, you know, you could intentionally have done that. That's your you know. To me, though, that just seems like a very half ass way to live. I fully believe in telling people how I felt. Oh, not you.
Speaker 2:No, that was. We both stopped like that, not you.
Speaker 1:You can come on anytime you want.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah, no, it's just it's to a person and if they probably never listened to a single episode, but they had us on earlier in our journey and we offered, we invited them right back on and they never showed. So, yeah, so that was a butt hurt. That's kind of something I'm going through right now. I don't know if you noticed this or not, but I'm a little more amped up than normal today. I have a smoke weed all day.
Speaker 2:I was going to say you want to talk about why yeah.
Speaker 1:No, I don't. I mean I do, but I don't. You're good. Um, I mean, I guess that's part of kind of what I'm doing here. Um, yeah, I see it. It's like I didn't even want to come on tonight because I was like I'm going to hurt someone's feelings today.
Speaker 2:Oh shit, I love it, though, but that mean that that goes back to what you were saying. I mean, not even about today's topic, though. Like, like we spent a good 45, 34, 45 minutes just shooting the shit and think about thequon Spanish demand, like you had something on your brain and you just like, you know, I don't feel.
Speaker 2:You know, I don't feel safe fucking going live right now, because I'm gonna fucking go off like this is what's going on with me, right now, you know, and you know, and you know, I gave input where I gave input, and I think that's something, too, that people need to know. I'm not saying I'm the best person for it, but people need to know, like, when to give input. You know, I'm saying like during that whole time, you know, there there was a part of me that was like fuck, what can I say, what can I say to my best friend right now to make him feel better, and I was like, well, nothing that's not why he's fucking talking to me.
Speaker 2:He's talking to me because there's no one else he can talk to in this specific moment about what's going on in his life.
Speaker 1:And you're already doing what you. You know you're already doing it just by sitting there listening.
Speaker 1:So yeah like you said, like it's not always about the answer. Some of the times it's about to Just being heard sometimes, man, and it could change your fucking whole night, how you change your whole Mindset. But yeah, I mean, you know I'll go into it real quick before we, before we jump on to Clarifying your values. So, personally, I smoke a lot of marijuana, trying to come to a Agreement with myself and I don't want to say like I want to quit. I love smoking weed, I love everything about it. So like smoking, but at the same time, like when I was a cigarette smoker, I Quit smoking cigarettes by smoking a lot of weed right. So now, as I'm trying to taper off not tape, I mean it's, you could say it's not addictive, all you want, but like you could be addicted to the, the habit I Mean I'm sure you can call me I've probably got every sign there is to be addicted to weed. It's a real thing. But People use it, the numb people use it for whatever I mean.
Speaker 1:For me personally, my mind goes so damn fast sometimes and it races, dude, it races and I can't shut it the fuck up, and that's probably why I started smoking at a young age, when I did. And today, 24 hours into it, I just I'm just not over it yet. Yeah, and I'm edgy and you know and and I wish that was okay. Where I'm at it's just I Feel like I have to smoke weed so I can be accepted in my house sometimes, because when I'm not, or when I'm just not in the right mood, I can be very hard to be around, and I know that. But I also don't want to lean on that like a crutch. So that's what I'm trying to do. So if you notice me a little off here and there, that's gonna be that. But I'm probably gonna pick it back up and just smoke it in the evenings because I mean I Don't want to start drinking again. That's gonna be bad problem.
Speaker 2:That's way worse.
Speaker 1:That's way worse. So ultimately, it's just about trying to be healthy at this point. So if I give it a week and I can get through it and we'll see what happens there. But I think this is just working out and trying to sweat it out of my system as much as I can.
Speaker 2:This is a lot better. This is a lot about your character, though, dude, like when it's all I got his character dude.
Speaker 2:Yeah, well, when you're saying, when you're saying like you know, like I don't, you know, I feel like I'm, I feel you know, am I like, am I fucking off the wall right now because I want to smoke weed? I don't like feeling that way. Just just saying that like says a lot about this, is a lot about you, and you didn't just like stop, like, slow down, you just you fucking quit cold turkey, yeah that's hardest shit.
Speaker 1:I did cigarettes. I was like in my head, I was like I was smoking cigarettes, cold turkey, but I was also fucking doubled up. The fucking one hits and joints. I was taken, you know it's like I was still able to appease the action of smoking.
Speaker 2:Do you work out today?
Speaker 1:Yeah, no, not today. No, I didn't Go tomorrow. My kid was my kid and wife were off. I like to go to the gym, so I take my kid to the daycare, but okay, I'll probably work out tonight, because I don't think I'm gonna go to sleep.
Speaker 1:Yeah, tell me that's the thing you're just like, and then tell me if I'm. And then, honestly, anybody watching or anybody in the comments, like, tell me if this is like a, like, an enabling thing to say for like a drug addict, right, like, it helps me sleep, helps me eat. I haven't eaten anything today. I'm sitting here drinking coffee at fucking 930. You know what I mean. Unless, like, that's not normal for me, I eat good.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I don't have an answer for that, cuz I don't but I mean, like in the medical side of things, I do have a medical card, so that's where the argument could be drawn, right, but like people get addicted to pills too, right?
Speaker 1:Oh yeah you know, and pills are worse than weed, obviously, but I mean it's still the, the drug, and the I Guess the term addiction, I mean I guess you could say like I mean, I've suffered with addiction in my life. I used to fucking, I used to love me some drugs, little nose powder every once in a while used to get down. You know, kick that habit a long time ago kick cigarettes, kick fucking alcohol. And honestly, when I kicked alcohol it was, it was a choice and I was like which one gives me more? It was like cigarettes, alcohol and weed were these three things that I had on my plate. They were taking me away from living intentionally, and this is before I even knew what the fuck living intentionally was right.
Speaker 1:Yeah so there's these three things that are taking my money, taking my time and taking my freedom. Right, because when you're smoking a cigarette, you got to go where you're allowed to smoke when you're drunk. You can't just be drunk everywhere. Right, because you're piece of shit that way I understand.
Speaker 2:I'm always wearing sunglasses. I got sunglasses everywhere, but you know I get a test for that. My photo burned his retina.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I did, and I had a pink eye and a fucking abrasion on the same retina. That was a fun week.
Speaker 1:Anyway, good yeah so I mean, like that's where I struggled with it. I got struggled with it on the medicinal side of things Pain management, stuff, like that and then I also struggled with it on the the drug side of it, because I, as an empath, I Unfortunately see both sides of most every argument and feel that both sides usually have a good point and there's usually just Like a lack of a middle ground for people to come together and talk. You know, like I mean you can do, you know politics Like I'm not gonna sit here and say like, cuz we're not political, I'm not political, I don't give a fuck, but like each side has some good points. If you idiots would just shut the fuck up and stop saying fuck that side, fuck you, because you're ruining the country, motherfucker, we all need to come together cuz you're letting them divide us anyways. Yeah, you're letting them divide us. My ass and I'm just kidding. So the first 15 minutes was my rant. You're up, I'm just kidding. Now I feel like a big piece of shit.
Speaker 2:Why.
Speaker 1:I don't know cuz I'm out there.
Speaker 2:No, but that mean I appreciate you being out there. Like I'm not trying to steal what Mindy said, like speak your truth, but like I think that's what I love about you the most. Dude is like, you know, we, I'm laughing and it's like it makes me laugh not in a funny way, but like we're like yeah, let's fucking like. You were like let me get this out before we get on. And then we're on and you're and you're letting it out. I fucking love that you, because that's that's who you are. Dude, if you, if like, if Kyle Turner didn't wear his emotions on his sleeve, something is fucking wrong. I'm saying that's, that's how I, that's how I at least you understand that.
Speaker 1:I wish more people in my world understood that about me. One thing I would say to a caveat that is like, like I said before we got on, dude, it's like I care. I care fucking more than anybody In your circle about you. I guarantee you that. Besides, you're like not you personally, but like you if you're in my circle and I'm up on you. Like bro, I fucking love you. You know what I mean. Like.
Speaker 2:I had a buddy.
Speaker 1:I had a buddy reach out and I hope he's watching. Man. I had buddy reach out. Today it's been locked up for two and a half years. Man and and I know this dude I went to culinary school, me and Josh from culinary school with them. Dudes, Fuck a badass chef went to a little issues you know and gotten some trouble.
Speaker 1:Yeah but we had a talk today and it's crazy dude. He hit me up out of nowhere and then I seen him and I'm just like bro, like where you been, like how you been. He's like Robin, locked up two and a half years. I'm like man, you just love prison food and dick, don't you? You know? But then, but then it was just like you know, like, but for real, you know, like yo, how are you Like? You're you set up? You got family around you. Like it's not just like a hey, bro, welcome out, like glad you're, glad you're home, check on you later. I was like no, like I was like text me. Um, because I told him, I told him a joke. He's like I cooked every meal I could in prison. I'm like, bro, you should do a tiktok or something about prison cooking. Like people are all about that shit right now.
Speaker 1:Yeah, they are and he was like dude. My aunt said I should start a podcast and I was like, naturally, I'm like bro, I know a guy, I'm like you, we can come on here, we could chat, we could definitely, you know. You know, get your, get your chest, I get it off your chest, and all shit. And it's like I told him like dude, I'm doing this thing where I'm trying to take as many people with me. Um, like, I feel like my mission in life now is to find the people that are fucked up like me and and just let you know that y'all, we're gonna be fucked up together for the rest of our lives. The rest of our lives is a lot longer than you're thinking. It is right now. That's it preach.
Speaker 2:Yeah, dude.
Speaker 1:People come to me man and I didn't until the end of the conversation. I was like dude. I was like dude, I'm gonna be doing the guild anymore because it's gonna take away from this other project that I want to do.
Speaker 1:You know that was a something and there's like he's like you know God's calling on you, man. Like I didn't even think about that again until just now. He's like God's calling on you, man, like he's, it's on your heart, it's on your mind, you're, you're clearly going out to, uh, to fucking. You know you're out to help, so you just, I just gotta keep pushing, I guess. Do you feel that way? I do, man.
Speaker 2:I know you're not religious. I know you're not religious person, but do you feel that? I do, I do feel like something is pushing me to keep doing this like today, like bro before I got on.
Speaker 1:Today I wanted to quit. I didn't want to do this shit today. I'll be dead honest with whoever's listening right now. I didn't want to do this shit. That's. That's how quick my mind Ships, bro. It went from like just five minutes or 40 minutes of talking shit with KZ to be in like Like man, like I feel like doing it, like I don't feel good yet, but like I feel like talking at least, you know. And if I would have just been like fuck this, I ain't doing the show tonight, you know, then I would have been focusing your office, yeah, all night. There's no, there's no telling how the night would have ended up, you know? Yeah, hey, you said it, dude, talking, talking. It's great there.
Speaker 1:But I do man, I do really believe you think you're on this path. I do, but like I just don't know how, like I don't know what to do, you know. So, like I try to like I don't know, I just try to figure it out. You like, like bigger. Maybe that's part of it too. It's like I need a clear mind so I can understand what I'm trying to do. You know, or I don't want people to come to me and just like dude smoke weed get over it.
Speaker 1:Like Okay, I just gave you edibles.
Speaker 2:I'm like you're good now.
Speaker 1:But no man, it's just.
Speaker 2:We can get over it, but when you smoke is fucking smells like shit. Yeah, okay, that don't make sense. Yeah, it's hard to exist sometimes. Man really is here's some.
Speaker 1:Here's a tip from uh.
Speaker 2:From Mike Michael rock, my man. Due to a recent surgery I was having to take a bunch of pills for pain. Because of this I'd have pain text at night and get in two, three hours of sleep. Told my doc the VA you mentioned the VA as hypnotherapy might be an option for you to help out. Hypnotherapy might be an option for you to help sleep and just drastically cut down on the weed. Mike, thanks for the tip. Have you ever thought about that?
Speaker 1:I have some serious hang ups about hypnosis, just because I mean like I believe it's true, but like I don't trust people. So fuck, no, like what if that doctor's having a bad day like me and he just decides to fucking make me like? Every time you're Horn, you're gonna fucking pull your dick out. And you know like I'm on a list and Mike rocks at my house. You know what I mean.
Speaker 2:Holy shit.
Speaker 1:Mike, what are you doing?
Speaker 2:here Like well, it's about your dick.
Speaker 1:Shit holy shit so set clear goals. Man living intentionally man. Set clear goals, clear to find your mission and break down in specific achievable goals. Have a clear Road map that will keep you motivated and focus on what needs to be accomplished. Again you done, oh Shit, yeah again. You don't have to have like a full out plan for every step of the move. But I mean, if you have a rough outline you're gonna be all right. You know you can. You could take that rough outline, Pounce it off your core value and really, really set yourself up for success in that aspect.
Speaker 2:Yeah, shit. And goals can change, I think I think we've said that before, but I think it's important to say that, yeah, go.
Speaker 2:Go should never be like I don't think, yeah, your goals can change it's, and then, in your, your pathway to the goal can change too. You know, I'm saying like, like in order to get like. I want this, like. My goal is this this is what I have to accomplish to get to this Like. It doesn't have to be that way all the time. There's more than one way to skin cat, and I think that I think that phrase Rings true to to every situation. There's more than one way to achieve a goal. Just because you filled step one Doesn't mean you can't do step two and three. There's fucking 10 other ways to to accomplish step one. You know I'm saying, um, yes, my piece on there. Oh, yeah, I'm gonna go.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah. So step two you don't want to prioritize your tasks. Identify the most important tasks that align with your mission and tackle them first. Prioritize. Prioritization helps you stay focused on what matters most. This is huge. You write this shit down and then literally do one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten that shit, and then just start knocking them off the list. Bro, you know like this is what I need to do today. Uh, you know like tomorrow morning I already have three things that I gotta do. Like I gotta wake up. One done right, because I'm not guaranteed that shit, so you gotta do it. If it's on your list to do, you're probably gonna do it right.
Speaker 2:Oh, speaking, speaking to that, before you get step two, like make um, I don't do this, uh, but I think it's so. I sound hypocritical, but I think it's a cool thing Um, like making your bed.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I've heard that.
Speaker 2:Like making your bed, like when it comes to like prioritizing his task and setting goals for the day, making your bed like Accomplishing the step, like that first goal of the day Is supposed to help you for the rest of your day. Like I don't, I don't like, my first goal of the day is brushing my teeth. Yeah, I wake up from dead sleep and walk through the bathroom, brush my teeth. That's step one. Once I once I do that, I'm like okay, cool, I can go fucking make coffee now, even though I just fucking brush my teeth. Making coffee. Step two and like my my day is not when I work from, when I'm working from home, I like, like I don't feel I feel accomplished. Brush my teeth, make coffee, sit down at the desk. Those are the three things. Anyway, my bad, yeah, oh you're good?
Speaker 1:Uh yeah, but that's basically just nailed it, so I'm just gonna move on, gonna move on, go my pee round number three Uh, eliminate distractions.
Speaker 2:Minimize distractions as much as possible. Create a conductive work environment. Turn off unnecessary Notifications. Set specific times for focus work. I fucking suck at this.
Speaker 1:Reading the wrong one We've been doing it the whole time.
Speaker 2:Am I.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I did it too, clarify. We're reading that's from uh the mind mind, uh, fuck dude, all right.
Speaker 2:It's all right.
Speaker 1:It's all good step one clarify your value. Step two step meaningful goals. Step three Focus on your priorities.
Speaker 1:priorities, yeah practice mindfulness is step four practice mindfulness. Pay attention to the present moment and fully engage in your experiences, without being distracted by the past or future. Um, that's a huge thing. To um the past, um, the future, unfortunately, is something I think you should keep on your mind. Uh, you shouldn't let it really Weigh you down. Uh, you should be excited about it. Uh, sometimes it does weigh me down because I Don't. Sometimes I don't see an end in sight for the pain Um, the anger and all that shit you know.
Speaker 1:I'm just a fucking angry dude, but I love you know, I'm just angry all the time, uh, so yeah, practicing mindfulness is something that helps me. Uh, I guess you got it's funny that the word mindfulness is. There's an app called mindfulness, um, and I have it on my apple watch and I'll tap it every like once a day. I'll tap it and it just tells me like take a minute, think about what you care about. You know, take a minute, undistract from anything, and just focus on your breathing, focus on being present right there. And Just that's the biggest thing, dude, is focus on being present Right there in your brain in that moment. Understand, feel your fingers, feel your toes wiggle, listen your breathing under, like, watch your chest rise and fall, all that shit, dude. Just fucking Be in it. Practice fine mindfulness. Uh, I mean shit, dude. Even learn some meditation, if you can uh Wim Hof breathing.
Speaker 2:That's another big thing Um what is that? I think I know what that is, but what is that?
Speaker 1:the Wim Hof method. Dude, it's like like powerful breaths, you know there's all. There's like a whole books about it, but the guy um Is the ice bath guy pretty much.
Speaker 1:So it's like controlling your breasts to where, like, you can actually make yourself apparently you can make yourself stronger by breathing a certain way and like it's I don't want to go too far into it because I haven't like personally studied it myself Um, but like that's just something that I remember is like it's a breathing technique or there's multiple different techniques to the Wim Hof method or something. I just know that that dude's like the guy that started this whole ice bath craze, like a couple years ago. Now everyone's like Went two years ago and I'm like you, the ice baths are good for, like Mental health and shit like that, you know. And then everyone's like well, you gotta get them to recover from your workouts, because fucking Joe Rogan said so.
Speaker 2:Joe.
Speaker 1:Rogan said so All right, do this because Joe Rogan sets out hey man, you guys catch that Joe Rogan show last night, like no, I didn't do it. I was listening to veteran chat project. What's that? Well, it's just these two guys, not fuck that. I'm clipping that do they have six? Do they have 60 000 followers? No they have 250, not fuck that. We got 250. Faithful motherfuckers is what we got dude, that's dope.
Speaker 2:I like that.
Speaker 1:Uh. So yeah, take responsibility. That's a big one, dude. That's a big one that people don't like to do. Take responsibility, acknowledge your choices and actions. Take responsibility for the outcomes, both positive and negative.
Speaker 2:I suck at that. I'll be the first one to say I fucking suck at that shit.
Speaker 1:It's hard, dude. It's hard, especially you fuck up a lot. You know not, you like when I fuck up a lot. Like it's hard to take responsibility for these actions every time, like every time there's a gut check and every time it's harder to get back up. Eat that shame sandwich, like yeah, you know, like I yelled today at my kid or something, and you just feel like a fucking asshole. Like you ain't the only one.
Speaker 1:Yeah like my, I am at my kid, he's like nap time, he's like screaming, and then, because he's too tired, and I'm just like like dude, like yeah but you know that's just me, because I'm, yeah, I got it makes, makes everything just go fucking haywire.
Speaker 1:I don't know like I might have, like uh, I might have. I do believe I have a touch of the tism and then that the fucking Sensory overload is a real thing. Man, I fucking a certain noises make me, set me the fuck off, dude. And when my kids just making the whiny noise for no reason, it really fucking gets me dude. You know what I mean.
Speaker 1:Like just yeah, because mommy's around, it's just like Like everything I know he's too and I shouldn't be like that, but it's like you don't do that when I'm here. Oh yeah yeah, mom's home. It's just like this is a different kid. No, I know that's frustrating, because I try to tell my wife that she like thinks I'm blaming her for something when I'm really not.
Speaker 2:I'm on the other end. Tell me, I'm on the receiving end of that actually. Um, sometimes, yeah sometimes, our youngest acts that way when I get home or when I'm around, but, like with mom, he's a, he's a fucking individual. He does everything by.
Speaker 1:And then I come home and he's Dad, do this for me, dad, you know like oh, dad, I think it's just the uh, the parent they don't see the most.
Speaker 2:He thinks yeah, that makes sense.
Speaker 1:Because they just they want to. They don't know like because your mom or your wife's, like the, the one that is the Authoritarian, because she's always there.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:And so you're the. You know you're like the me. I'm the authoritarian, am I obviously? Well, I mean not obviously, but like I'm, no, I'm just I'm fucking here. My wife fucking works her ass off, dude, and it's ridiculous. And even when she's not at work she's got work calling her and you can put the fucking eyes, dude, sometimes I I love that she has such a great job, but like Seems like the more money you make, the harder it is to work, like the more bullshit you got to put up with.
Speaker 2:That's tracks, that fucking tracks.
Speaker 1:Yeah, or the more, the more corporate, fucking cool age you got to drink, or the more fucking, just absolute dog shit. You got to get treated like you know. Like well, I'm making 200,. You know like that's. You know you hear people like that all the time, like bankers and shit, and like well, making like 200 grand a year. Like yeah, you like that shit. You know I'm fucking miserable dude.
Speaker 2:Are you happy though?
Speaker 1:Yeah, I fucking hate my job, like okay. So like why? But why and that's another problem, dude, that's, that's society telling you that you're not normal or that you're abnormal because you Refuse To work 40 hour work week? Go to go to hippie-skippy work and make your 16 bucks an hour, come home like everything's peachy. No, dude, I ain't fucking going to work in your kitchen, no more. I'm not gonna fucking make 12 14 bucks an hour while I'm cooking 30 40 dollar plates for 700 people a night. You know what I mean. Like this.
Speaker 1:That's a restaurant industry for you right there. Like every ticket at the same time, every ticket averages that's who needs to go to fucking.
Speaker 2:That's who needs to go on strike.
Speaker 1:I saw a motherfucking McDonald's workers going on strike the other day, dude, in California or some shit. Like McDonald's workers going on strike? Motherfucker, just quit. It's 100 degrees of McDonald's. Who gives a fuck? Turn a fan on what the fuck's your problem, dude, you're working McDonald's like you. You can't expect that shit to be treated right, dude, nobody fucking treats McDonald's right like. I'm sorry, it's not. It's not where you want to be Like. It's just I don't know. It just doesn't seem like a good company to work for, because they aren't they. They will tell you themselves. They're not in the business of selling hamburgers, dude. They sell real estate. You know they right. Mcdonald's doesn't sell you a single cheeseburger they sell. Have you seen the movie the the founder on netflix yet?
Speaker 2:No, let's go on microkeen.
Speaker 1:Bro. So this is how this goes. This is how it goes right. They buy the property, they sell someone the franchise.
Speaker 2:Yeah right.
Speaker 1:So here's you give me. I bought this property for 50 grand. Right, you give me 100 grand. I'll let you put McDonald's on a building. The rest of the cost is on you Me as the developer. I still get a piece of the land because I'm McDonald's. Mcdonald's owns the land. You only own the building right. So you still got to pay rent on that land Like bro. They don't sell cheeseburgers, they are in real estate business shady dude. It is shady as fuck. That sounds like.
Speaker 2:I feel like every Chain probably does that, then right yeah, pretty much. Chick-fil-a to you, and that's that's.
Speaker 1:That is why you should watch that movie, because, like that dude, michael Keaton's character invented that shit. He stole McDonald's from them, dudes.
Speaker 2:No, I need to watch that.
Speaker 1:What's it called?
Speaker 2:Yeah, bro, uh, no, I don't mean, yeah, found uh the founder. Yeah, like bro.
Speaker 1:He stole McDonald's, like like. It was like these two dudes had it in like Oceanside or something like that and it was like a little cool-ass restaurant. I get to cool-ass movie do, but yeah, you make you want to punch Michael Keaton right in the face, corporate America.
Speaker 2:That is.
Speaker 1:And that's what we're here talking about. Yeah, that's exactly what Karen can just say. That's America, though you know shit, that's that that's the fucked up country we all love and hate so much. Right that we, uh, we sit here all fucked up for defending you know what I mean and that that that, right there, it's enough to drive a fucking veteran crazy, you know, like not questioning the country that they defended, like that.
Speaker 2:Did you ever?
Speaker 1:I fucking every day, dude, every day. You heard it. I questioned the fucking platoon. I fucking served. You know what I mean. Like I was called a cancer because I had questions. That's how you know. I'm not allowed to be in a fucking corporate situation.
Speaker 1:Army is is that the army is so much a corporation that you can only get ahead by drinking the juice anymore. I would have been great in the 90s in the army if I was old enough I'm not a fucking garrison soldier and there was what was growing, the mode pool and practice. Oh my god six times just because I had a bad day at home.
Speaker 2:You know how many times they told me that.
Speaker 1:Swagger. Why fucked a private dude? Everybody can get it. Call me motherfucker. I'll tell you my address.
Speaker 2:You know how? They told me that like you're yeah, you're a shitty garrison soldier, but to pull it you're a great tanker I was like, oh, I don't know what that means. Okay.
Speaker 1:This, so this, though, not to mention what I have in that game saying, yeah, bro, let's just pull out and leave all this shit like yeah, I didn't.
Speaker 2:I didn't. I'm not gonna lie. I didn't question what we did until that happened.
Speaker 1:Yeah, like whoa, what was the point then? What was the I?
Speaker 2:felt like yeah, that made me feel like super shitty once like once all that shit happened hell yeah.
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Speaker 1:Pre-changed and people are fucking filling up your, your head with negative, with their negativities and shit. If you're like, here's the thing, dude, if somebody comes to you and they're super hyped about something, like an idea that they have, and your first response is like, well, that's dumb. Or like, well, you know, like what if that doesn't work? Or and if your first response isn't anything but just like, dude, that's fucking dope and fuck you. Because, well, if someone comes to you excited about something, that means they're willing to share it with you and they want you to be a part of it with them, right? So, like, let's just take our group text for chance and this podcast, right? Like, I love those boys to death, but it has now become a separation because they don't want to talk about anything Like this. We would love to have mine, but they're not talking about this shit.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:And like I can't go in that group. I mean, I go in there and I'm like, hey, bro, is it when that's it? And but it's just like I don't know, like I can't. I don't want to have conversations that don't matter anymore. There's nothing wrong with that, though.
Speaker 2:No, no, there's, yeah, that makes sense and that there's nothing wrong with that.
Speaker 1:I don't think and then that's not like a dig at our group down. I love, I love it, but like that's where I got off of it in the first place. Yeah back in there now. But yeah, like.
Speaker 2:That's tough.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2:Yeah, sometimes you get me a, not some. You gotta pave your own fucking path.
Speaker 1:So yeah, number eight embrace growth and learning, that's uh, that goes right along with that man like, unfortunately, you can always seek opportunities to learn, grow and develop as an individual. No one's gonna fucking help you. Do that for yourself, I mean there, they'll be there for you, though They'll want to assist and everything but like, at the end of the day, you spend more time by yourself than you do with anybody else. Probably, if you're me, I summon cannot counting my kid, I mean do like I'm pretty much alone 90% of the time. So I got a lot of time to think which could be good, could be bad, just depends on the day, I guess. But like it's hard for me to, as I was talking about it earlier, it's like embrace the growth and learning, like I do that. But like, as I do it, it feel like the more I try to work on it, the worse I am, because, like I'll say, like I'll put all this work into it right and I'm like oh man, I'm doing my shit.
Speaker 1:And then it's like a relapse right, like, oh he, I cussed. Or even tonight, like me and my wife got an argument and I fucking yell. You know, oh sorry, you know I'm not. No, I'm not in a good mood and I was trying to have a conversation and the body language Gave me very big fuck you vibes. So I I reacted to it poorly and I apologize, but you know, that's just part of that growth and learning and it's like I don't know like. And then Now I look at it like you're such a piece of shit because I'm in here trying to tell people To do these things and not trying to tell people. I'm just trying to. I'm just trying to help as many people as I can and my awareness help is included in that, so like.
Speaker 1:I'm not doing this because I'm trying to tell y'all that this is how I live. And we're doing it right over here Because I'm not mr Influencer, bro. I'm never gonna be mr Influencer. You ain't gonna like me unless you fucking know me, promise you. Probably most people probably only come on your list in the KZ anymore.
Speaker 2:I doubt that, just constantly bitching, I doubt.
Speaker 1:But so, yeah, embrace growth and learning and again, man, like it's, try to be proud of the things that you've accomplished in your growth. And that's something I'm telling myself right now. Do, because it's hard. It's hard when everybody reminds you constantly Of your failures, of your failures, especially when you yourself are stuck in those failures and you're doing everything you can to get away from them. But you know, like, yes, round your pile, you surround yourself people that don't put you in that position.
Speaker 1:You know, you got to do it or you know, fix the relationships that you have that make you feel that way, if that's what you want to do. But yeah, like I was also say, surround yourself, and Surround yourself people who fucking truly care about you.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:I got one of those two. But yeah, you Saw, it is, at the end of the day, growth and learning it. You, you, I mean it all comes into the fucking thing. It's like, dude, people aren't always there to be on your team, you know, I mean, like, think about it, think, think back, and some of the friends that you had growing up right Like not even army friends are just friends. You thought like you had a best friend growing up Right and he's gonna be your best friend forever, but something fucking happened right now. All of a sudden, you guys don't talk no more, or you know, like you feel like you're not doing, you like they can't get nothing out of you so they just fucking bounce, or I don't know, man, like people, people ain't always on your team, dude, and it's usually the people that act like they're on your team that are.
Speaker 1:And you need to fucking understand the difference. You need to be able to Disciple if people are actually on your team or not, and people's actions speak louder than their words. On that one for sure, for fucking sure. So, yeah, cultivate gratitude. And you know as much as I bitch and as much as I complain, like I also, dude, I fucking appreciate everything. Dude, I fucking care so Much about fucking everything that I mean it's to a fault. Like people get tired of listening to my shit. I mean I get it like when I was an army I came off as a guy that bitched a lot, but I give if you were actually listening to what I said. I Never lied. You know what I mean. Yeah, I got in trouble when a E6 and a E2 went out drinking and I wasn't even there, but the E2 was my roommate and I got in trouble.
Speaker 1:Cuz I mean because I was, cuz I was there, oh okay, you know, I mean like I wouldn't even out with them and I got a fucking E7 in my face calling me a cancer, because because what cuz you baby, cuz I'm not a fucking adult, or because I am an adult and I didn't go out drinking on a Tuesday night. So, yeah, I mean like cold and gratitudes. It's hard because, like I do have I do have a little bit of a resent towards people that fuck me over because like and I guess that's maybe even me too like I often take things Way more personal, then then a lot of people do.
Speaker 1:Just because that comes with feel like I wouldn't do it to you, so I'd expect you not to do it to me. Yeah, everybody doesn't think like that, though.
Speaker 2:That comes with the type of person you are, in my opinion, because you have a, you have a fucking huge heart, like you said before, like you, just you care about people. But that might be.
Speaker 2:It's a fault too, yeah you know I'm saying like, yeah, that's what, that's what I was trying trying to get to you. It could be it can be counterproductive at times, because you're so open to people, it leaves you open Like it leaves you kind of vulnerable a little bit right all the time, dude, all the fucking time, because I'm I mean shit, you saw it.
Speaker 1:Yeah and that and that group text incident dude, when all that said was, like bro, I don't think I want to be in this group text anymore for a while, and it was just like a and I hate to keep harping on this cuz I mean, again I'm over and I love you guys, but like that's how it went. Yeah, and it was. It was like a list of shit that I should be thankful for that was put up with on my part, like oh, you used to be a cusser and used to yell and scream, and every time we hung out, you did this. It's like well, why the fuck did you hang out with me? You know like? You know, like I didn't realize that I was, I don't know, maybe I'm not over it.
Speaker 2:I think you're.
Speaker 1:Build authentic relationships. That's funny that this is the oh shit. Connections with people who uplift and support your journey.
Speaker 2:Yeah, like you say anything else about that, because I already did yeah, like you said, like you guys surround yourself positive people, um, I, you know, I don't, I, yeah, I don't have that, or I mean not that I don't have that, it's like I don't, I don't, I think I'm in, I'm in the point my life now, or like I stopped looking for that, I've stopped looking for other people just because, like Everyone, fucking fails, dude. Yeah, there's like a I can let you down.
Speaker 2:When it comes, when it comes to like authentic relationships, I can count on my hand the authentic relationships I have on one hand, you know I'm saying, and one of them is in the, in the, in the comments right now it's because you know, when something happens to me good, bad or a different like there's these five people or who I'm telling, you know, saying, and because I know these five people will build me up or break Me down if I need it, yeah, yeah, that's a big thing, dude, is to being able to break someone down and like Phil Jackson that I asked you like.
Speaker 1:Yeah, man, you're fucking up today. You didn't. You didn't do what you said you were gonna do. You know what I mean? Yeah, that kind of shit like.
Speaker 1:I'll think the conversations of like, hey, bro, how you doing, I'm good. Okay, well, I checked on him, he's good. That's what leads to your boy shooting himself in the face. You know that, right, like not you personally, but that's like, if you're listening to this and you and you're the kind of person that just and you might not do it on purpose, and I used to do this too but you check on someone and you just go hey, bro, you good, checking on you, man. And then the text is like yeah, bro, I'm all good. And then, like, you just take that as like yeah, so he's all good, and then they're gone. That happened, that's happened to me, not a, not an army friend, but what my friend killed himself.
Speaker 1:Dude, one of my closest friends I made out of the army.
Speaker 2:Yeah, and what it like. You know those authentic relationships? Don't surround yourself with fucking yes, man. That's what I'm saying, dude like Be, be, have those relationships around you. I mean, I know this is supposed to be a positive message, but, like you know people who can uplift and support your journey. But you also need those people who can uplift, like, who can like call you on your shit. I mean.
Speaker 2:Yeah like, who could like, who are not afraid to be like KZ or or not. Let me, let me reword this people that you're not afraid to fucking tell your faults to you. You know me like, hey, I fucked up today. This is like, don't surround yourself with people that you're just, oh, like you're only. They're only there for you to like hey, this is, this is the positive thing I did today. Now feed me with positive feedback. I mean, right, find those people that you're like hey, I Fucked up today. This is what I did. Oh shit, you did fuck up. We did you suck. Yeah. Yeah, you can get you can get better tomorrow.
Speaker 1:Bro, yeah, you know. Like yeah, fuck, yeah you did. You fucked up. Like I told my boy like, oh, you went to jail. Hope you liked dick, like like it was a joke, but at the same time, like bro, like you know he knew that man like, oh, I hope you fucking stay out of fucking jail this time on me.
Speaker 1:Yeah you know and you know it's funny is like we were talking about that glue, the pain, right, how we had talked about, like, yeah, the pain that binds us to the people that we bring on the show, that that makes them able to Tell their story. And I kind of told him a little bit of that, right, and he was like you know, he's like I, about halfway through this stand, like I started thinking with that mindset and he's like it's amazing how quick my, my whole shit changed. Like I spent the last like year Just trying to, you know, think about what I'm gonna do different when I get out. We don't know how I'm gonna do better this and that. And you know, it's just like he realizes like he's not the only person going through it. And that's the biggest thing, dude, when you're going through shit, you ain't the only one, and to feel like you're not the only one is the biggest difference, right? So yeah.
Speaker 1:He knows that now and then he's like dude, my fucking life's been so much better. He's like even when I was in jail, my life was so much better with that mindset.
Speaker 2:You know what I mean. Like I, can't. Me too, dude.
Speaker 1:But uh, seek fulfillment and joy. I'm not even that's it. Seek fulfillment and joy, dude. Go out, find, fucking find whatever makes you happy and fucking do the shit out of it.
Speaker 2:Yeah, fuck, hold on, let's pull this. You want to pull this up? Yeah let's pull up Carrington. But, like with Carrera, I talked to him a few months before he did it. We had a conversation and he said he was doing good and this and that, but then I call it. I get a call that he's dead and he never said anything. Yeah, that's.
Speaker 1:Yeah, that one, that one definitely.
Speaker 2:That's the thing with those situations too, and like I wish I wish I had an answer for that. But, like you know, like, like, like they say to communications are two-way street, you know, as long as, as long as you know you did your best, like, as far as like communicating that stuff, like, hey, I'm here for you, and like, if, if that person still wants to go jump off, come on, that's a shitty analogy for the situation. If that person still wants to fucking make that decision, they're gonna make that decision. But in the, at the end of the day, as long as you know you do what you could, I think That'll help you move one foot in front of the other.
Speaker 2:And that's not advice that I fucking came up with. I mean, that's advice that, to go back to those talking points, like that's advice that I got from people that I surround myself with. You know that I'm not afraid to be like, hey, I feel like fucking shit, I feel like killing myself today because I'm in this fucking mood right now. You know, because I feel I regret that. You know, I regret not saying more. It's like, no, you did as much as you could. Like go back and think you did as much as you could. You know the literally the only thing you could have done different is probably be there physically in the moment and, you know, stop the chamber from chambering. You know those, that decision was made, the decision was made. I Don't know I'm going with this, but like yeah, yeah, I love you dude, that's the hard.
Speaker 1:Yeah, bro, for sure I, I, that's the hard thing about it, man, it's, it's, it is hard, it's hard, but you got to be in, you just got to be persistent. It's, and that one particularly man, that one took us all by surprise, bro. I mean, we all know Luke was a fucking was, a. He was just a different motherfucker. Like I never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever thought of him as someone that had even the slightest, you know, like issue, because he just always seemed so happy dude and always so there squared away, and Just one of those people I never felt I had to check on. But again he was, wasn't in my platoon and then not that I was an excuse, but like you know it, you can't do like just with Nichols, bro. Like Bro I talked to Nichols, I want to say it's funny, dude, it's funny cuz, like I Think we talked about this on a podcast once like you ever had Like the feeling that something bad was gonna happen about somebody, and it did yeah, I.
Speaker 1:Never said this, dude, and it's gonna sound like bullshit, but you'll believe me and that's all that fucking matters, bro. It's like I was generally concerned About a month before Nichols shot himself. For Nichols, just because I know him, I Know where he came from and I know what he fought through to get to where he was and I know how aggressive of a Human being he was it's a good descriptor, both good and bad.
Speaker 2:He's very aggressive.
Speaker 1:Yeah, so like. So the surprise aspect and I don't want this to sound wrong by any way, but like the surprise aspect, what? All right. So first I Felt terrible because I had this thought Right, where's my boy? I got to get hold of Nichols, but I didn't act on it. Right, I didn't act on it. I talked to him and it's because I talked to him. I Talked to him after the Mike Brown situation of Ferguson, missouri, right, and he called me and he was. He was pretty hyped up. He was like bro, you need to get fuck out of there. He's like just come out here, fuck all that bullshit, got the ghetto, come to live in the car. You know, nichols, like let's get fucked up and hang out all time. Oh, I brought can't do that. You know he's just like whatever man he's like I'll come see you. And then you know that was it and we hadn't talked, I think, text one time after that and it was just about like smoking weed or some bullshit. And yeah.
Speaker 1:And then he's gone, you know, and it's just like dude, like I, you know, and it's hard to to like I couldn't have done anything, right like I know I couldn't have done anything, even if I had acted on it.
Speaker 2:That's the hardest thing. Yeah, that's the hardest thing to admit.
Speaker 1:That bullet, rose? I mean, is suicide someone's time? Or you know what I'm saying. Like, how do you decipher If there's God, right, that's. This is my problem with it. I don't even want to really want to go into this right now, but I am so like, if people die and it's their time, right, everybody dies at their time, right. But what about suicide, right? So like, if God is protecting everybody and letting them die at their time, is God killing people, making them kill themselves, like or like, how does that work?
Speaker 2:or Try to just I try to just have I mean that I'm probably wrong here. I've tried to justify. I try to justify that as in like, like it's, it's shitty that it's happening, but it's happening for a purpose, to help you like, to help bring awareness, so that you don't fucking do me. That's how selfish I am like, and but it's, but I mean as, as, even if it sounds wrong, that's that's how I try to justify it, like, yeah that's good one.
Speaker 2:God gave us free will. What we do with it is up to us. I mean, you're right, but like you know, when that stuff happens in a question, like you know, I'm like like if you are up there, then why the fuck? Why is this happening?
Speaker 1:Why is all this shit happening, do you? Why is fucking? A million different countries worship a million different gods and in some countries they're willing to fucking murder each other in the street over what God they they believe in. Yeah, you know, and it's like dude, that that's not fucking Christian.
Speaker 1:You know what I mean and like oh, let's be honest, you, most of the most of the Bible thumper and people I know, like most of the people I know that are like really in the end of the church and all that stuff like shitty they're pretty not good people, especially like Catholics, bro. Like I'm sorry, but the fucking jigs up the fact. All you motherfuckers Just be like I was in. I was in the club on Saturday night snorting cocaine off a stripper's booty hole. But, I told my preacher about it on Sunday.
Speaker 1:He said do five Hail Marys and eat Jesus's bread, blood or whatever, and you're good with it. And then you and you stand up, sit down, stand up, sit down, you're out. And then guess what, balls deep and cocaine Sunday night, but guess what? Guess what? Sunday's coming.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:But yeah, dude, that's just I just I question it just simply on the fact that there's so many gods across you know, the world, or the infinite, whatever. That like, I don't know. I do like the idea of Greek mythology. I think that there's like a god of everything. I think that was always cool, I was always fascinated by that like a god of the god of war, like the, the fucking, the angel of Protection or you know that kind of shit.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Like, like, just like the one and only God boss, like no one man should have all that power. Didn't you hear what Kanye West said? Jesus Ha, it's a Jesus and God in the same relationship. So anyways, man, that's it for living intentionally and dude, reach out to people and just stop being a fucking dirtbag all the time to the world.
Speaker 2:Hi you Just you know who you are and you, you motherfuckers and yo.
Speaker 1:I am not sending you the link again. You probably still have it in your email. Hey, that code this.
Speaker 2:This sentence kind of goes in what Karen to you said. You know I'm ugly all Um. What he said free will of humanity. All again, free will of humanity is nobody say free. God gave us free will. What we do is up to us. Living intentionally is about being the captain of your own ship and just being your life towards the destination you desire.
Speaker 1:I like that it allows you to lead a more purpose driven, fulfilling and meaningful existence, guided by your beliefs, passions and aspirations not influencers. Not fucking Joe Rogan. I hate. I hate bashing on Joe Rogan because I like him, but like the jigs up Joe. Let someone else at the spotlight get the fuck out of here. Jigs up Joe.
Speaker 2:Hashtag jigs up Joe, yeah, yeah, living intentionally, I gotta do I get um. How do you do better of doing that?
Speaker 1:Much all I learned from tonight is like I thought I was living intentionally.
Speaker 2:Oh yeah, it turns out I'm not fucking suck.
Speaker 1:But you know what, dude? That is the honesty of the show. We're not. That's what I'm trying to tell y'all Is what we don't fucking know this shit. Like, I organize this shit so we could talk about it and so we can discuss what we think about this shit. You know, like, yeah, I love it.
Speaker 2:So what are we talked about so far?
Speaker 1:I tell you, we don't do politics here.
Speaker 2:What's the always the first thing is oldest bug and he's got responsibilities. Was that it the first one we talked about? What clarify your values no, no, no, like the past episodes, core values last week.
Speaker 1:What was we're?
Speaker 2:still going.
Speaker 1:We're not done yet no over this shit, dude. I'm trying to go home, no, so let's see, oh.
Speaker 2:Accountable, keeping yourself account accountability was the first one, core values the second one, and today was living. Intentionally, we kind of got carried away with the mind focus, mind, mission focus, just because we are guests on. On Monday we played catch up for two hours. It's our show, I don't give a shit. Yeah, what are we gonna talk about next week?
Speaker 1:Whatever we want, come fucking find out Monday. See you bitches, love you guys later.
